an array of stupid stuff.... :)

I am having trouble coming up with a topic, so here is a whole bunch of stupid things that go on in my world... :) (and in my head)

I am trying to interview people for a position in my department right now. Interviewing people is definitely NOT my strong suit. In fact, I hate it! It is so hard to figure out in such a short period of time whether this person really knows what they are talking about, could do the job well and would fit into our crazy group. Really hard. Sometimes I get it right and sometimes I get it really really wrong. ha ha.

I have LA Ink on TV in the background right now and I would love to get another tattoo. I love them. They are addicting! In the past I just got tattoos without any real meaning. One I thought looked cool and one that I drew out myself, but with no meaning. Which actually is fine to me, I still love the ones that I have and I don't regret them at all. If I would get a third I would go for a lilac branch. Seems a bit odd, especially for me because I'm not really the "floral" kind of girl, but that would mean a lot to me. It would be for my old neighbor "A. Bon" and that's a story for another post, but I seem to be in the more "sappy" mood these days for some reason, and I miss her. I've thought about it for a long time and that is what I would want. Not that I will really go out and get another one, just a thought.

My nephew is so cute (I know this has been said a trillion times). He is up to 6 steps on his own right now! and he loves being chased around. He starts crawling and looks behind at you and wants you to come after him (while crawling). If you do, he starts laughing and crawls off. So cute.

I am taking a spinning class right now three times a week and trying to get to Snap Fitness across the street 2-3 times a week. Just got back into it, but really need it. Enough is enough. I know what I can look like and I'm tired of looking like I do. I used to be a cutie! :) and I want that back. Spinning is crazy hard, but it really helps me work off stress and burns sooooo many calories in one hour, I love it. I wish I could do it everyday. I refuse to hit 30 years old looking like I do now, things need to change.

I can't believe January is almost over. I didn't think this year could possibly go as fast as last year did. I don't know where the time goes. There is so much that I want to do and so many people that I feel I need to spend time with and catch up with and it just doesn't seem to happen. I need to get better at this. I think that a lot, and then when I do get a free few minutes I just want some quiet time to myself! Hahaha. I can't win. I guess I just have to hope that my friends and family know that I love them and we will catch up when we all get a minute. Everyone is crazy busy right now, it's not just me.

I need to win the lottery to travel! Wouldn't that be great! That would really help me see everyone. Besides going to Rome and Venice which I would just die to do, I could hang out with Missy in whatever city she's in at the time and go to Charlotte to catch the girls down there, and my Uncle in FL. Not to mention everyone here. Plus, there is so much to see in this world! I would have to start in this country of course, so much I want to see here. I love NYC and would love to go back there. I want to see the Grand Canyon, Yellowstone, Mt. Rushmore, to name just a few of the famous landmarks. I want to see it all firsthand. I want to visit all kinds of crazy places. Anyone have any trick to winning the lottery let me know. :)

I really need to go to bed right now. I also need to figure out how to sleep better. It is one of my favorite things to do and I am bad at it. I either fall asleep really quickly and wake up a ton throughout the night, or it takes me forever to fall asleep and I lay there irritated. I really don't know what is worse. And I'm a clock watcher. If I'm awake a long time or wake up in the middle of the night I have to know what time it is. If I try and not look I'll stay awake longer because it will grate at me. Every few months or so I will actually fall asleep and see through the whole night and it is the greatest feeling! Doesn't happen often and I don't know what I do differently to cause it. I think I have a hard time turning my brain off and that is a lot of my problem.

OK, now that I have sufficiently bored everyone to tears, I will end this and go to bed. :) Thanks for listening to a part of my life!


reading suggestions....

I just finished a series that I've been reading for awhile, Sue Grafton is the Author. She has books with titles consisting of the letters of the alphabet, all the way to T is for Trespass. It's a series about the Private Investigator and everything she gets involved in. It began pretty slow, but once I got started I had to keep going because then I "knew" the characters in the books. Now I really like them but I have to wait for "U" and who knows when that will happen.

Anway, so I am bookless right now. OK, I have some that I haven't read yet, I usually borrow a handful from my friend Lauri. I call Lauri every once in awhile and ask to borrow from her library and Missy does the same every few months when she's home for a few days. That's how much she has. It's become a joke between Mis and I. So, I do have a handful, but nothing I really can get into.

I like almost everything it seems. Fiction and Non, doesn't really matter. I just want to be able to really get into it. Have you ever started reading a book and the next thing you know you've just lost an hour or more and you can't put it down? That's what I like.

So, if anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to hear them. I need something new.



AIDS in Africa.........

OK. This is just a quick bit to vent on today...

I feel pretty strongly about starving children, kids needed adopted, people needing healthcare, AIDS, all that stuff. IN OUR COUNTRY. Not that I have anything against Africa or any other country that has these issues too, I don't, but why can't we fix the problems in our country before trying to fix everyone else's problems.

I just briefly read about the whole RED deal and Dell and Microsoft involved in trying to solve the AIDS in Africa problem. (you can get the story on MSN.com) Plus all the celebs trying to fix everything over there, whether it be adopting children or AIDS or whatever.

I feel the US has enough issues already and maybe we should spend some time focusing on that first. That's all.


venting on a bad habit

ok, I need to vent. Some people haven't heard, some are tired of hearing, but I quit smoking about 4 months ago. With the rare slip-up. So basically, went from a pack a day to none at all, and for four months now. Ok, can I just say this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life!

I was on the patch for about 8 weeks or so, and it was rough, but the patch is a wonderful thing and really worked great. But after that, its been hard. And the worst part for me is that it's not in my body anymore, the addiction is all in my head.

My husband and I discussed this over the past weekend. It is so frustrating how a little cigarette can totally take over your life! But i loved it!! lol. And it's really hard!

Sometimes I am absolutely fine but a lot of times I feel as if I am crawling out of my own skin. That is the only way I can come up with to describe it. It's crazy. And it's not a "I need a cigarette now!" feeling anymore. It's really a "I can't sit here any longer, I feel like I could run a marathon, and I'm losing it feeling." Crawling out of my skin. Nuts. And any patience that I ever had in the past, yeah, pretty much gone.

I know I've been terrible to get along with and live with, and I'm really trying to get over this. i know it'll get better as time goes on as well. Steve said he was impressed that I've gone this long because usually it takes a few times "quitting" to actually quit. I smoked for 12 years and this is my first quit. I can do it, but geez!!

I wish I could be the social smoker that some of my friends are because honestly, I really loved it. but I can't. I know that about myself.

Plus, it was my stress reliever, and I haven't figured out how to handle that yet without it.
I know it all sounds really silly, it does to me too, and that might be the most frustrating of it all. but I am a strong girl, darn it, and I can do this. one way or another.

Thanks for letting me vent! :)

election time....

The following link was sent to me by my friend at Mementos of a Military Mom. To be honest, I haven't done it yet, but I did look it over and find it very interesting. It is a form you fill out, yes or no answers plus the degree of strongness you feel on the issue, and it is supposed to help you decide which presidential candidate fits your views most. Very interesting.

What I really liked about it is if you don't fully understand the issue, or are confused by what "yes" or "no" entales, you can click on the issue for an explanation. Very helpful.

I didn't fill it out yet, but I do plan on it, out of curiosity and to understand some issues more. I do know I feel strongly on some more than others, and sometimes my feelings are to the extreme. So, as this election year continues, I will discuss any issues with anyone. We may strongly disagree, we may totally agree, who knows, we all have a right to our own opinions.

Check out the link though, and thank you MMM for sending it to me!!



two questions....

been meaning to ask these for awhile. Not that a lot of people read my blog, but I do value the opinions of those that do :)

Answer, don't answer, post them on your blogs, doesn't matter to me. Just want to throw some thought out there. I've gotten interesting responses...

1. If reincarnation really exists...what/who would you like to come back as and why? any traits, anything.

2. If you could spend one full day with anyone that is no longer alive, who would it be? famous person, personal person, anyone.

My answers:
1. I would like to come back as myself knowing what I know now. I don't know that I would change anything, but I would like the knowledge of events that I have now.

2. My first thought was A. Bon. I love her and miss her very very much. But I know she is with me all the time now. My second thought was my grandpa, dad's dad. He passed away when i was 8 years old. He was great. He used to come pick me up for some weekends, sometimes just me sometimes my cousin kelly and I. He was my favorite person :) My final choice was my Mom's Dad, Fred. I never got to meet him because he passed away when my Mom was 11 but she has told me such great stories about him. He would be great to meet.

Just some info to ponder... :)


don't even know where to start....

ok, again, been a long time. i say that a lot now! my blog has gotten boring and so i haven't seen a point in really getting on here. I do like staying in touch though, so that is what brought me back on today.
Hope everyone's holidays were good. My were. Time goes so fast though. 11 days off work and they just flew by. It was nice to get to spend some time with family. In these crazy days it doesn't seem like there is time for anything anymore and my famiy members are the most important people to me. I wish I could have spend some time with some old family friends that i miss a lot, but I got a few phone calls in, so that works for now.

Got back to work and went straight to Atlanta for AmericasMart again. It's a crazy place. Hate it and love it at the same time. Change of scenery though which is nice.

I learned that I take a lot more crap from people then I expect myself too. But looking back, I've done that in the past too. Just depends on the situation. I wish I could be that outgoing person that just tells it like it is, but I can't always do that. and I know, MMM especially, you probably think I am like that. and you're right to a point. I'll watch out for all my friends, but myself last. it's wierd.

ANYWAY, I'm hoping 2008 is the year! We all need some good stuff going on around here. I want to hear from everyone! MMM I'm so happy to hear "our soldier" is coming home, that is super exciting news for the year!! Best I've heard!

This will be an interesting Presidential race for sure, but that's a post for another time. :)

Everyone take care and I'll try to get on here more often.